So the New Year is upon us all and of course we tend to want to shake things up a bit.
I have been tossing some things around in my head and also with hubby about what I would like to do this year.
When my family gave me my camera for my 50th birthday I found myself all of a sudden in a state of renewed energy.
I don’t think they understand just how profound this gift was to me.
You see I have no trade or skills as such..i am a mum..it was and is my job, an unpaid and not really certificate worthy position.
My life since i was 21 has been about raising children to be well adjusted, happy and caring humans..and with great pride I can say I succeeded..they have all become adults I can be proud of.
In the process I lost myself..i found I was a wonderful cook..and not much I cannot do in the kitchen..i have so many cookbooks that it is almost bordering on obsession.
I can sew and I taught myself to knit and crochet and learnt all I could about gardening and growing vegetables..i have renovated decorated and designed.
So why all of a sudden do I find that I have not really picked up a cookbook for a long long time…
I have not had the urge to bake or bottle..i have still been gardening and to have a veggie garden again after so many years is wonderful..yet my heart is really pulling me elsewhere.
When I was given my camera I was given the gift of nature..i headed back out to what gave me solace as a child..
The world and her beauty, the animals the flora the landscapes.
I found a world of amazement was mine again..all it cost was time and patience and being in the right place at the right time.
The last 3 years I have climbed trees again..crawled on the ground..jumped fences..hidden in the bush and waited…I have found my inner child again and I know what I need to do.
You see I love to share what I see..i love that feeling of turning to people through my pictures and saying “Did you see that!”
I want people to be with me..and to feel the joy I feel.
I am no professional and I have no qualifications.I am not educated in the ways of Photography and I am still learning as I go, I have my battles with lighting and settings and more often than not I surprise myself at what images I get.
And so I procrastinate ..I want to do something that appeals to people and makes me a little cash..i have not worked for many years due to my health and this is one thing I can do that I can moderate according to how my body is behaving.
I procrastinate as there are far more talented people than I.
I procrastinate because even thinking like this has me feeling like a ‘fake’ not a real pro.
I procrastinate because basically I have not much faith in my ability to sell myself or my pictures.
The thing is I feel like I have to..i feel the need to not waste these images I have been so lucky to get, seems such a shame that they sit in my files and apart from posting them on blogs they do not see the light of day.
And so I am taking a leap into the unknown..i am asking for suggestions as to what would be a way to share these images.
What appeals to people ,what they would appreciate..urghhhh I put myself at everyone’s mercy.
I know I am wanting to work on a book for my nephew and niece and grandson.That is in the works.
So feel free to give me your thoughts..i take criticism well.. be honest I need some help as I am totally stuck at the moment!
I am off to go through some pics.i have files everywhere and they need some sorting!
I leave you with some recent adventures!